THE RAIN CAME TODAY!

It is about time. It was enough to make it wet but the grass is still turning yellow which is good because I have not been able to get out in the back yard to mow. It is about a foot tall back there. I have been thinking about my relationships in the recent past and you know I didn't do anything wrong. I was the good one in the relationship and they just threw it away. I had a girl I knew in Muncie (I can't say friend) everytime I would ask for her option she would want me to tell her that she is medically okay. She has wanted to get pregnant for a while now and I hate to say to her that her clock has almost runned out like mine. She is way too thin (87 pounds most of the time) and has a family history of these issues. I just have Polycystic Ovarian Diease - which has two extremes - one is you become atheltic and are extremely thin - the other is what I have I have the "Weight Issue" that makes it hard to lose weight because of hormonal imbalances and high testoserone levels giving me the hair issues. People still look at me and tell me just eat less - there has been days I have gone with out eatting (manly because of depression) and then when I start to eat I eat a sandwich and that will be it for another couple of day. I do drink pop during that time so I am getting calories but I should be thinner then what I am. I wrote down once for the doctor for a month what I ate. He was hoping to tell me to cut out things or not eat as much and he told me to eat more and I would lose weight? Does that make any sense to you? I love how they treat a hypoglycemic person (That is someone who has low blood sugar.) by putting them on a low carb (sugar) diet. Umm if a person has low blood sugar and you take them off of sugar - isn't that a bad thing? I consume sugar to stay awake otherwise my sugar tanks. I did a glucose tolerance test...If I could have the drink they gave me here - I will be able to function. It was this orange stuff that instantly make me feel better - better then I have my whole life. Also they had to do the test four times - I had to consume the liquid each time for it to finally show up in my system. They said most only have to drink it once or twice but not this much. I wasn't able to function just before taking the first dose of the mixture. If that says anything.
I still hate people in general because they are all users - they use you up and spit you out with out thinking. I hope to one day take advantage of someone like they have me. I hope to have them hurt like I have. I hope to crush others like they have crushed me. Men are nothing but little boys that are in search of someplace to put their dicks and nothing else. Woman you are nothing but a jack off machine. That is why they don't notice when you have done something to you hair, dressed different or anything else you have done. They just want to know when dinner is and when your going to do them. If you happen to like the same things they do great otherwise - you only exist for one thing and one think only - to be a sex toy! Otherwise they are gay! They want women to have little boy figures and be able to do it with every hole they got. If they can do that then you will have that man for life or until the next piece of ass comes along that had do it even better and is even younger.
You know since 2001 I have not taken a vacation vacation. Before the year 2000 I took trips every year but now you can afford to go anywhere. Gas is outragious and you pick to stay at home just like they want you too. If you can't go anywhere and do anything - the your not a threat to them. You can't smoke or drink. Your civil liberties are going and soon will be gone. They are on fat people to get thin. Smokers to quit. Drinkers to not drink. Everything you do that is fun will kill you. I am about to run for office. The Jaysha's Freedom Party. Abortion is a choice, being gay is cool with everyone. Legalize Pot! Make people around the world love us again! Lower the cost of Passports since we have to own one to leave the country. This world has gone to hell. It is because people have stopped caring about the person next to them. If we would tell big business to go to hell along with them shipping our jobs overseas. This guy came on TV and said if he would give $20.00 hour to pick onions in his field the jobs would still go unfilled. I would go pick onions for $20.00 just tell me where to go and I will start picking along with hundreds of out of work people. You don't even have to do the health care - we can afford to pay for it ourselves though it would be nice. The guy said then he pays $8.00 hour - guess what we won't do it for that. Some of would because we can't get work any place else.
Have a wonderful day!