Well Shoot!

Even if I wanted to go back with my ex's I couldn't or I would forever lose my mom. I pick having mom in my life and not the garbage that used me. That wasn't a hard choice to make. I am making one more thing final too. I am saving up my money and I am going to have that surgery I spoke about earlier in my blogs. If I am not going to use it and in the case of women it causes more cancer and problems then it is worth having. I am happy now being alone and I really don't need anyone ever again. I have me and that is good enough.
Unlike what is believed people think it is all sex - I don't even like sex but I can't explain that. It is nice but it isn't anything important to me. Not anymore and not ever again. I have zero sex drive because everytime I get to feeling good about it - thoughts hit me or things happen and I am back to square one. I am serious when I say - I am done with people. They are all users and takers. They always want something from you and never give back. That includes in the bedroom. People are jokes and they are just not that funny anymore. I hate everyone but people in my family - They don't take from me or use me.
If you need a fan to cool off - I will never give you one again.
If you can't pay for something - then tough shit - you will pay one way or another.
If you want a keyboard - you can kiss my ass.
If you want me to come someplace - you had better pick up my ass.
I am just not doing it anymore. I don't care about other people anymore. I hate everyone but like I said people in my family and I love them. This world can just go to hell and kiss my ass!