I want to know how this feels like to rip out someone heart and then just look at them with a smile. To have no feelings for that other person, watching them cry and beg for you back. I want to feel that so bad. I want to see what my silly face looked like and know I will never do that again. I want to lead someone on and make them feel all wonderful then I want to pull the floor out from under them, to watch them cry and hurt. I want to crush others and make them feel what I have felt all my life. I am not going to put up with any shit from no one. You feel the need to talk down to me - I will simply leave you standing there with your word or I will turn around and slap you. You pick!
You decided to show up late then it is over and I will never speak you again. You need to be perfect to me because I was always expected of me. I had to be perfect for everyone! I now expect that from others. There is no messing up around me, or you will gone out of my life. I don't need imperfect people around me.
If anyone else would have done what I did, the person would have stayed. Hell people kill others and they spouse still stays. Yet I screw up and say somethings in a email or decide to go to school or breath wrong and the person will be gone with letter's saying that they never really loved me and they never did care about me. I am not taking that anymore and I am returning what has been given me. I am going to speak my mind for now on. No one can take that away from me!
I feel nothing in my heart or soul. I live day to day - just existing. If I make others hurt then they will feel the same way I do. That would be nice to see people hurting and being hurt. That is the in thing to do now. I can't wait to laugh at the losers and tear them down.
I hate people and hope if there is a hell you all will go to it.
No - I am not some crazy person, just someone that doesn't care anymore.
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