Storms

Well - it looks like those storms never came. It is getting warmer though. It has gone back up to 74 degrees at 1:16 in the morning. That is warm. I hope my ex is sleeping well tonight, I am sleeping good tonight because I know tommarow the storms will be here. They are what I live for the most. I love my weather things. I love hearing thunder in the middle of winter during a snow storm. I wonder if there will ever be a snow tornado. I should go look it up.
Well, I am headed to bed, to listen to the rain hit the window outside. To hear the crackle of lightning and the rumble of thunder. You know the weather doesn't reject you but sometimes it just doesn't happen. I can handle things just not happening but rejection after kindness, is something only monsters do. They leark in the shadows waiting until you are not expecting it - then they jump. They jump and tell you things you can't believe, things they said they would never do. The lies! I trust no one! I have lost all trust in people because of the last two people I have been with. They lied through their teeth to me! They slithered in and wrapped around me then zero in for the kill. What is wrong with me that people feel they can do this! I am no longer going to care for others because I know no one cares for me. I will become what they are and hurt them before they have a chance to rip my heart out again. I will become that monster to survive, because that is all that is out there. Users and monsters! I found both!