It is a NEW DAY for me!

I am free again! Something I didn't think I would like but one day after the break-up I feel so much better. I am not tied to the computer and I can go and come and not have to write about it to them. I know I was used, that was writen in blood a couple of days ago. His words went from wonderful and loving to hateful and degrading. Why is it after I have been so nice to that person, except for a few bad emails on Monday, they had to rip me a new asshole. I know he said he had no one else but you know I feel that was a lie. I don't know what the truth ever was in this relationship. If you could go from saying you love someone to hating them in the same breath. I believe this person needs help and quickly before he hurts someone like he hurt me.
I, when I said something, didn't know it was his daughter birthday weekend - I thought it was on Sunday of this coming weekend. I just wondered where all the money went that was all. When he told me, I was like, okay but then he kept going and going. I didn't read his letters completily - I couldn't and wouldn't! So I brought up some things I shouldn't have with a meal we had at a local place. His meal was $18.00 which he paid for. Mine was $6.00 which I paid for. Then he left a $5.00 tip after saying he didn't think he could pay for mine. Any woman would be upset, I think but I kept it to myself. He did make up for it though with pay for a lot of stuff after that. I wouldn't have cared if he would have left less of a tip. It doesn't matter now and it was just the reason he needed to leave. To go like my ex-husband did. Like what we talked about in many conversations. He didn't leave like a man when all my letters after that were trying to make up for some Ooops stuff I did. He left like a monster and evil man.
Well if this would cause him to leave - I wonder what would have had happen if we had a face to face fight. Would he hit me! I wonder now! I wonder if that is why his wife left, was because he hit her or something. I don't think so but with the words this man or should I say child wrote to me, it makes me wonder. His words were like fist, beating me and hurting me.
Just a day after I am recovering nicely. I have blocked email and IMs. I have sent back all of his stuff. It was cheaper then taking it to him and droping it off. (Gas $3.65 gal.) I am free of him and he is free of me.
If you are reading this, my dear, I really think you need to get help. In all directions with medical for your leg and heart issues. For your mind with depression and Bi-polar issues. You have to know clearly have a bi-polar personality when you in a letter at 10 am you write - I miss you and love you and then at NOON you tell me to F-off. Please for your daughter and parents take the money you would have spent eating fast food and watching movies - take that and go get some help.
Well - this is my new day and well - it is going to be good.
I am no longer looking for a relationship of any kind because the men out there just are not right anymore. They don't respect women, care for women or support women. They are little man children - they collect toys, play video games and sit on their butts wanting you to serve them. They say they want to help you but then they just sit there doing nothing. They don't know how to keep a job or keep money in thier pockets to pay for expenses. They just want you to do all the work and make them look good. You can support them in what ever they want and as I found out that isn't enough. I don't want women either - they are catty. Also if your not thin both men and women don't even give you a second look. Well the hell with all of you. I don't need any of it.
The perfect guy for me was - Overweight, lives near, has a very good job, has an education, gentle and kind hearted, age 30+ but not over 42, not a whole lot of sex partners, would never hit a women, will not use people, will pay for the date (this doesn't have to be all the time but it would be nice), like to play Roll Playing Games like D&D on the computer, can accept anything and just love me for everything I am and support me for the future like I would be doing for them. Looks are not important. I like tattoos but not that many. Look at me like I am trying to pick up someone. LOL
Well I am going to let this post go out there and I am just going to sit here and see if anyone writes. I am sure that no one will. Though I would like to thank the one comment on Walls. Thank you.
Ta Ta!