Divorced and Living!

Well - I am living and that is all I am doing. I have nothing to look forward to and I do hate my life. I have decided not to date again for life - I am done. I am not just saying that. I have never been liked by others and I am not sure as to why I am so hated. I give of my heart and soul - then people step on me. I have gone out to eat recently - since my body seems to be coming back online and working - I have had pee in a milk shake from Steak and Shake (still have it in my freezer) and was never waited on a the local Big Boy - it was 45 minutes later and the woman who was to wait on me put peoples finished on my table right in front of me. I about got sick! I left the resturant and told the manager who dismissed me. Then I went to Ryan's the other day and the food there was not edible - I told the manager at the end of my meal - I was hoping to find something on that buffet that I could praise as decent. The manager dismissed me and I will never eat there again.
I have lost over 100 pounds in less then 6 months - I stopped eating for 3 months except for a piece of bread here and there. I couldn't eat because everything looking bad to me. It all tasted bad and oily. My health is better but my depression is still bad - though I am suppose to be over it. Sad. I have to get over everything as soon as it happens because the only person I can talk to (my mom) just doesn't want me to feel it or have me talk about it. I don't know. I don't care anymore. Ordered pizza tonight. I hope it is good. Have a nice day.